Since my dad passed away on Nov 24th, my life has felt a lot like this air creature. Sometimes standing upright, looking normal for a few seconds, then bent over and upside down, in agony the next. I guess that’s how grieving a parent feels. I’ve grieved grandparents, an aunt, close friend, pets, but this is so much different. It’s pangs of regret for all the things my dad didn’t get to do, and then it doesn’t seem real. Like he’s just been at work and will be home later. It’s quite strange. Everything feels frozen in time.
I am still living.
Today was very hard. My dad did not get a good prognosis from his cancer doctor. Just a few months ago he was doing so much better and now they’re suggesting possible hospice care. My mom has had a small heart attack recently and she doesn’t want any tests or treatment. 🌱
I feel like I’m going to lose both my parents. I am bipolar and have difficulty handling every day normal emotions, I really don’t feel like I can handle watching my parents get worse. So there’s that. .
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